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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
I feel down and hopeless right now. I was using my best friend as a crutch to escape the reality of how unhappy I am with my life circumstances. I loved and cared for him but I was using him. I talked to him for hours a day. I’ve ended a relationship that was an important part of my life and now I’m also having to face reality which is harsh.
I don’t have confidence in myself or my abilities to make things better at this time. I feel stuck and lost and scared. I’ve been struggling for months now, I know. I can’t seem to help myself out of this hole. I guess the first step is to build my confidence so I can start laying the foundation for a better life.
My daughter will be coming in today. I am so looking forward to her visit. I’m so excited. We’ll have a good 3 days.
Hugs to all.  |
Hi Jennifer. I'm sorry to read that you are feeling down today.
I haven't been able to be as active here as in the past, but I do come and at the least scan posts. As I recall, either yesterday or the day before you seemed more upbeat. More sure of the benefits of certain decisions. My point? It seems you have rapidly changing thinking going on. Positive to negative and repeat. I think this is something you should mention to your pdoc when you next can. I'll also suggest as a word of encouragement that you may see things much brighter tomorrow. I've certainly experienced such thinking shifts. It's part of my bipolar disorder.