I took a few pictures of myself tonight and I'm looking kinda sick. My mom says I look tired. But I'm not underweight. I'm still considered 7 pounds overweight according to the BMI which I know is considered BS to a lot of people. I look a bit guant I'd say. I think if I took a shower and combed my hair and put on clothes that didn't hang off of me I'd look a lot better. I can sort of see where my therapist is getting concerned to be honest although she hasn't mentioned anything about my weight specefically. Just about food and eating disorders in general. Today I really have been worn out and just hanging out in bed. I ate a plate of beef filet for dinner. I've had a weird craving for red meat ever since I started feeling weird. It took me 3 days to eat it but I ate a giant pot roast pretty much by myself last week. I don't even really like pot roast. Eh theres worse things to crave I guess.