Yeah... I just don't have any motivation to do anything anymore. I think of all these things I could be doing. But realistically I know I'd be unlikely to stick with any of them assuming I even got started to begin with.
I've now given up every hobby I had (not that any of them really ever amounted to anything anyway.). Part of that is motivation. But it's also true that, in my case, I have rage episodes. Plus, I'm something of a perfectionist where my own work is concerned. So, if something doesn't go the way I think it should have, I'm likely to just destroy the whole thing. Better, to my mind, not to get into it to begin with.