First, no one here will bash you. We offer advice or suggestions...but we never bash. It's probably safe to stop putting that in your posts.

I think kd is right. We can make lots of suggestions, but we aren't qualified. The dual focus Ozzie suggested also sounds reasonable. However, I think you need to have good coping mechanisms in place before you begin any work into large traumas. That way you can deal with the feelings that arise after these sessions.

Thank you for sharing your diagnosis. It helps me understand you when you mentioned the ultra rapid cycling. I wish you luck on your journey. Please keep us posted on what happens.