You are not a failure, by trying means you're successful! You need to find yourself a new theropist, one that will help you and will give you samples of medications. Mine does, since I've been out of a job and my husband has been laid off, they try to help with meds. My counselor also told me that fish oil tabs help with moods.

F = Fantasic person to know
A = adorable
I - In creditably wise
L = Loving
U = Unbelievably successful
R = Real Friend to those who come near
E = Enthusiatic

You are worth wild and remember you have friends here.