I sometimes experience sadness. I haven't been, in actuality, depressed in a long time. The results are very beneficial. Sometimes when I talk to my docs, I speak like I have depression symptoms still but what I experience is a sadness. I think of it in fleeting seconds now as if it's only social isolation and that's a symptom of Schizophrenia. I realized this because I have this period tracker app called Flo. There are several 'symptoms' including being self-critical, calm, energetic, as well as depressed and sad, so I'm just a tall strange woman who obsesses over: God, St. Michael the Archangel, her own guardian angel, the askance of who I am, special-ness and uniqueness, shopping, getting better every day, using her voice, and especially trying to achieve greatest hits and even on the internet.