Thanks for asking, EM. I was very ambivalent for the first few days. But, I was honest to my T’s there. I do think it was helpful in the sense that I got to experience different modalities of therapy, all which gave me a different perspective on my life.

I also really saw that having support 24/7 was extremely beneficial for me. There was a T there every day until 10. So if I was really upset about something, I could talk to that T for a bit. I am pretty sure I cried to all of their T’s-and there are lot.

One of my T’s told me that she doesn’t see just depression in me, that she suspects I have trauma, specifically relational trauma, in my life.

To me, trauma is such a BIG word. That’s used for war veterans, people who are abused physically or sexually. Serious stuff. I never experienced anything like that.

The only real thing is that I have no memories of childhood. I don’t start having a narrative of my life until I was about 11 or 12. That is a LOT of years to not remember.

overall, it was beneficial. i am not suicidal currently, and so far have avoided the unhealthy coping mechanisms I fall back on when I go down that spiral.