I think for me, part of wanting to change is understanding what's wrong with me in the first place. Like, I've had this anxiety my entire life, and I thought that's how everyone felt. I'm just coming to the realization that it's not normal, at ALL, and that I'm going to have to work to change it. But without that realization, I wouldn't work to change it, because I wouldn't even know I needed to (if that makes any sense!).

It's really hard to change patterns that we've had for so long that they feel really natural. As bad as it feels, it feels comfortable in a way, and then there's the fear of the unknown....what will life be like if I DO change??

Sorry you're feeling bad ((((((((((( Dave )))))))))))