Feeling a bit depressed. I tend to feel that way this time of year. I don't welcome warmer weather; and over the years, this has been a season when bad things happened. So I guess there are reminders out there for me to give me flashbacks. This year so far nothing bad has happened. But there's plenty of time for a possibility; at least in my mind I seem to be anticipating something to go wrong. I have some anxiety also.

I picked up my bike earlier from the repair shop. I had my bike tied up for three days for service. I had been feeling tired of bike riding and possibly wanted to give it up. It's hard for me to let that go since it's my identity. But, with the bike working better now, I think I'll like riding again. It was kind of nice to give myself a three-day rest from it.

Today is the one year anniversary from the last day at my job. I have retired since then, so it's a one year anniversary in retirement for me. That time has gone by so quickly - it doesn't seem possible that it's been one full year! I've been happy being retired so far but I really miss the money since I was taking in more while I was working. I made some attempt to go back to work but nothing panned out. I'd rather not work, but I feel like I have to because of money.

To Rose: I'm very sorry you are going through this ordeal. I wish the best for you. I don't have any suggestions. I went through a period of surgery a few years ago and it was a dark period, though there were some heartwarming moments. The recovery was a bit longer than I thought it would be. It all turned out OK even though I'm still paying the price a little bit from the surgery.