No, I don't get that from you. It's hard because I had also experienced ex-MC, who was warm and fuzzy and very reassuring--and then he ultimately hurt me. In part because he had seemed fine with everything until he suddenly wasn't. When I suspect he wasn't fine before, but just didn't tell me because he knew it would be painful. So in a way, I appreciate that Dr. T does share when he's just "mildly irritated."

I just think it might be hard for me to trust another T. If they seem too accepting, then it might be like, "OK, they're just saying that, any minute, they'll reject me." In some weird way, it's almost easier now to deal with a T who is less accepting on the surface. Even if it's painful, I feel it would be much farther to fall with a T who seemed more accepting, then turned out not to be.

Though maybe it would be different if I were seeing a T solely for EMDR or DBT?