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Originally Posted by junkDNA
ive been around drugs at work. most of my coworkers are on drugs bad. its hard for me to stay away from that, but that's what ive been doing. it would be so easy to say, hey, lemme get uhhh ____ and that'd be that. i think my therapist is freaked out by that too.
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For me, it's better as I got older. Apparently most people grow out of it as they get older.
Starting substances being instant for me (Online - Hundreds of times). I eventually started buy and then would cancel the order out of guilt (Dozens of times), then it was ordering and letting my mom know what I've ordered so she can dispose (Few times) And then it was only psychs, stuff like that... Psychosis drugs. But I've made a decision to give psychiatrist more control since yesterday.
Being honest is good too - I let my treatment team know everything from beginning to now.. My 2016 trip was so scary that I got scared straight (I let the treatment team know this too - Cuz it's true). I take the benzo and stim meds 95% as prescribed for a few years now.
The problem for me is that I'm
obsessed.. U are not I don't think.. You'll be OK - The problems.. Of life, mental illness etc.. are difficult af. All things in moderation - Not hungry ghost realm <3
But yeah it is hard to be around people like that/tempted.. I think it would be annoying too. Love not drugs.. lol. But here in Canada, almost decriminalization cuz the opioid OD's are out-of-control. All of these situations are why I hate THEM (People that controlled all of the US presidents etc..)..