I'm OK with going to heaven.. The Summer of 2017 MDMA (When I was censored here), it showed me energies. Of a dream world. Emotional. After such a long time of anhedonia.

I have to heal properly. I feel damned by everything though. Everything I touch falls apart.

Everyone's just trying to stay sane.. and hold on (But I don't think that way of thinking is going to get me anywhere).