Thanks for reading.

Though I miss T, I do have see how this therapy thing works. T mentioned quite recently how therapy works outside off the room and not only in the room. I wondered about that when she said it, but let it go because at that time when sitting with her, I hate to think about "outside", but of course once I'm outside the room I do have a sense of T within me. I often walk along thinking about her and how good it feels to have part of her within me now. I sometimes find some of my manerisms mimic hers. Oh what funny creatures we humans are. I feel her sense of calm within me, I often picture her in my mind and then say what the problem is too her, and then get the experience of her containment within me and I smile and feel secure/held. This can only mean that things can only get gooder and gooder, I mean its not like my experience of her is going to fall out of me, its done now. Thats why I feel its very important for a T to have gone through her/his own intensive analyst or else I'd be picking up their issues dysfunctions too.. I see therapy like rearing children, its not always what you say they pick up, its who-you-are and what-you-do that get picks up too and some of this is outside ones awareness, so special care needs to be taken.