Thanks for your reply. To my recollection, this is the only time I've mentioned 'bashing'.

My sister took my Mom to her GP today and he was appalled that they did not admit her to the hospital when I took her to the ER a few days ago. He spoke to somebody at the hospital today and my sister took her up there and she has now been admitted. I know she's in a place where she will get the care she needs and the tests run that need to be run and I'm extremely grateful for all that. But it doesn't eleviate my breaking heart. I'm definitely not dealing with it very well at all. My brother lives out of town and will be coming with his eldest daughter tomorrow evening. He and my sister are trying to help me through this plus my other crisis at the same time. It's very hard for me to see my mom like this. I'm extremely close to her and I'm just not ready for her to die. I think I will need to discuss this with my T and pdoc this week because I know I will fall apart far more than I am now. My mom now is not the same mom I had a few days ago and it kills me to see her having to deal with so much on top of her other disabilities. I just love her so much and I know how frustrated and scared she must be right now. It's just killing me. I'm having a very hard time pulling it together but the crisis center said my grieving over both crisis' is completely normal. God, none of this feels normal to me. So much incredible heartache, 2 major crisis at the same time.