I feel very alone with this, even though I am not. I spend the day by myself working and all I can think about is how my father is doing and how my mom is holding up. It's so hard to concentrate on work whatsoever - my mother says to compartmentalize, but that's really hard to do. My work feels very meaningless and silly in comparison to my father's failing health.

He is not doing well. His O2 drops to a scary level even when he sneezes. He cannot come home in this state. Right now, they're seeing how the steroids effect him. It takes 48-72 hours to take effect, and by noon today it will have been 48 hours.

I did see him on Sunday and he spoke very little. His oxygen also drops if he speaks too much so he has to be careful.

I don't know how to get through my work day.