Dear T,
There was nothing objectively wrong with session today (well, your commenting on the text at your phone at the start maybe...), but I felt detached from you. Was it obvious? I don't understand how I can feel connected in my head in the time between session, but then when I actually see you, I feel disconnected. Maybe it was partly you, but I feel at least some of it was me. I even tried to connect by telling you the funny thing D said about me and the tree, and it felt a little connected, but not what it would have felt, say, a month ago.

Am I trying to protect myself? Do I not feel "safe" yet after the rupture? I'm wondering if we need to talk about it a little more. Or if it's just a time thing? I imagine it may not have helped that you were off yesterday, so it was longer than usual between sessions, plus I'm just seeing you twice this week.

I don't want to bring anything up about it Friday because, well, it's Friday, and only 1 of the last 3 Fridays wasn't a mess (the most recent one, but still...). Kinda want to see how I feel then, and if I still feel distant, maybe I can address it Monday?

Love,
LT