I'm in love with someone right now, I haven't felt this way in a long time. So you would think that would be a reason to be happy, joyful, on top of the world, but I know it would never work out. There are a multitude of reasons but the that is bothering me now is I would never be able to tell them everything about myself. I have some...dark things in my past...I have been a real POS at times in my life and I desperately wish I hadn't been but what's done is done I can't imagine revealing some of this to them. I deserve to be alone I'm a toxic person in reality who doesn't even deserve what I have and to be where I am at in life right now.