last night at t... i told him that i need him to help me take some of the power out before he lets the boys read it... i told him that i "know" that they have the right to know the truth... that even if they don't believe it... i know that it is true... but that i "need" to get to a safer place... just reading it the other night sent me to a place very close to the place of no return... so starting next week we are going to start to go through it... line by line... i am not sure if it's even possible to get to a safe place with it... lyn