People diagnosed with DID have trouble integrating their memories, sense of identity, and aspects of consciousness into a unified whole.

I had dissociation in my teens, 20's and 30's and I have always struggled with my sense of identity after 13 years old. I've felt like I can't integrate my experience into one. I felt like a complete person before 13. I don't know if I have DID or not.

When I was at Johns Hopkins 2 yrs ago I spilled my guts to the doctors and told them that dissociation killed me and they didn't say a word. When I was Johns Hopkins 4 yrs ago I told the doctor about my depersonalization and she didn't say anything. No one has listened to me. I strongly feel that once you dissociate you're never the same.