So I bought this art program and now I'm discouraged. The supplies are expensive. I need to learn how to draw though. My sister wants me to be her illustrator. I can color but I haven't really drawn in about 15 years. I hate that I don't have the money to put into skills that may help me provide for myself. I can't do traditional school. I've tried I'm no good at it. This gives me actual people to talk to on discord plus self paced training. It's perfect. The monthly fee is less then half of an in person class. I can't do in person anyway. My anxiety and mood issues wont let me. Art supplies are outrageous. I don't know.

Went to therapy today talked about how Miguel is doing was told to remind him he can come home now if he wants. Now I'm crying and I don't know why.