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Originally Posted by *Beth*
I've been taking 25mg of Seroquel to sleep and I sleep very well. Of course, I want to keep sleeping, which is so darn annoying. But 12.5mg doesn't do anything. I'm not taking the Seroquel every night, though. I find that on some nights the hangover effect is so strong that I can sleep the next night, too.
As for Mary - I'm determined to move through this rapidly. You know, the first long-term therapist I had, we had a terrific relationship and he had his act together very well. This was through the Veteran's Admin. I was in therapy with him for 6 years and really did hard work that paid off well. I've mentioned this here before...he had to suddenly, with only 24 hour notice, leave his location because he got stationed somewhere else. The last session I had with him was that he was leaving immediately. And that was how my therapy ended. It was devastating.
I didn't see another one-on-one T for 26 years, until I started therapy with Mary. Apparently, my track record with ending therapy is less than fabulous. I know I need a therapist. I am tempted to call today and make an appointment. But then I think...should I? Maybe not. Both times, long-term therapy wound up with me being badly burned and traumatized. I'm asking myself what I really want from therapy, and is it worth all the stress that therapy dumps in my lap?
Anyway, whatever direction this takes I am willing myself to get Mary out of my mind, in the past, and move on.
So kids, it's going to be freaking 101 degrees today and 106 tomorrow. David was going to go golfing with his older brother and their nephews, but his brother cancelled because of the heat (his bro is 83). David is disappointed, though, he loves really hot weather.
Low of only 70 tonight, my bedroom is going to be HOT. A/c and fans. Cats that are puddles.
"...Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy.
Lighten up while you still can, don't even try to understand,
Just find a place to make your stand and take it easy."
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Sleep is very important for the total wellbeing! Hope your med provider will put you on a doze that works for you.
I had a therapist once that mixed friendship and therapy.
I used years to come over it. Later on something really terrible happened to me. I tried without therapy, but one day I almost stumbled over the person who had hurt me and the need for a therapist came. I was lucky to find a serious one. Of course we had to repeat some of the stuff I had worked on in former therapy, but we tried to keep the focus on the terrible experience from newer time. That worked very well for me. For now I can contact the therapist for sessions if needed. That works fine, but I try to not need it to much.
I think the best you can do is to take your time to weigh for and against therapy. May be you already have been through enough psychological work? If you feel so, may be you don't need a therapist now. (I did therapy with myself after the friend/therapist mix. I sat in a chair and told myself how much I had suffered. So I moved to another chair and played a therapist. I was listening, caring and warm. I was my own therapist and it worked. I wrote everything down in a book, so I could go back and repeat if needed.
I don't think I would have contacted a new therapist if it was not for the hurt that became unbearable after the later new trauma.
I wish you good luck with thinking all this through. What do you want to work through that you haven't worked through already? Can you be helped by a self-help book? If you feel that you really need therapy, go for it (with a new therapist).
Best wishes!
