I have quoted Beth, but my input is for all who perhaps need it.

I have not felt well so far this day. I dropped my usual morning routine and laid down at my sofa (even if I had planned to go shopping today and I really need to print out the tickets at the library). First I was self blaming, but then I understood that all the feelings had to do with my mentioning of the friend/therapy mix yesterday.

So it is. There are days when old hurts feel like they are new.

I think that so it has to be. We cannot beat ourselves up because now and then old hurts break through. We all started in therapy with the wish to overcome all that held us down. But may be that is not how it functions?

May be the best way is to accept that sometimes old hurts breaks through and that we have to allow ourselves to be kind to ourselves when that happens? After all we are human. Old hurts were real and can from time to time pup up again. They have put marks on us that we cannot just wash away. A person who has had a leg amputated can learn to live with that, but from time to time the accident or whatever it was that led to the amputation, pups up again in memory.

I have left my sofa for now and am sitting here with my PC. My body feels better and I know that after a while I will go and do what I am supposed to do for today. That is a good feeling ...

As years have passed I have found that the CBT design is a really good supplement for mental health (at least for me).

I read a book years ago (a self help book) about the CBT approach and it is still helpful to look into that book. In that book I met a therapist who didn't believe in going back in time. His belief was that we have to stay in the here and now and try to learn helpful coping mechanisms.

If somebody want to look into it they have it at Amazon. The title is: "Breaking the patterns of depression" by Michael D. Yapko. Amazon has a good description of it, but if anybody want to buy it, please remember that this book is not for reading only, but for reading and doing. One has to work through the chapters to make it work ... (It worked for me, but we are all different ...).

How do I end this input? I feel fine. I really do. I am comforting myself with that it is OK to not be on the top. In half an hour or so I will go out and do some of the things I had planned for today.

Be as well as it is possible for you today, all of you!