|
Jun 12, 2022, 03:32 PM
|
|
|
|
Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
|
|
I want to thank each of you for your kindness, friendship, and support. I always feel safe and nurtured when I'm here.
A few weeks ago I made an appointment with a therapist at the agency where my really nice medication PA is. Then two days before the appointment it was cancelled. I was spooked about another therapist who may be a "canceller" so I never rescheduled. But as the days pass bits of this and that are falling into place. I wrote a novella  on the I Drove Past My Therapist's House thread in the Psychotherapy board. I didn't start the thread, it's an old one. But I added onto it and that was cathartic for me.
I've decided I'm going to call tomorrow and make an appointment with the therapist again. This time I am not going to be so "polite" - I will ask upfront if she tends to cancel much. I'm not looking for long-term therapy now, but I feel that I need to process the extremely painful therapy mess I'm going through. My fear is that when Mary returns she will request a processing appointment and I will not be prepared, won't know what to do, and won't feel successful either way - whether I go, or don't. And I am extremely afraid of her instantly terminating me, because that would tell me exactly how bad of a T she is, and it will hurt something awful, no matter what I tell myself.
If I see another therapist a couple of times before Mary returns maybe I'll have a clearer picture of how to proceed, and feel more confident.
The kits are doing so well with the high-protein, very low carb foods - except my old guy, Solomon, who keeps throwing up the kibble. He's fine with the wet & freeze dried foods, so I'll see how it goes this week with the kibble.
Sidney's glucose numbers have improved so much! What a great joy that is!
Well, it is time for me to do some major cleaning. Vacuuming and mopping, and taking out a large amount of recycling. I'm sure hoping I'll have the time and energy to skate later today.
~I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.~
-Walt Whitman
__________________
|