Dear T,
Are you going to ask me tomorrow if that was a test? I'm not totally sure how to answer that question. I legitimately wanted suggestions on how to handle that (though a whiteboard, really?).

But there was this part of me that though, after I hit "send": "OK, this is an email about a specific problem, with an urgency due to the deadline, it's not about you, it's not about the therapeutic relationship. If you don't respond to this one (beyond "confirming receipt"), well, then that says something, doesn't it?" (But I'd have sent this email had it been pre-rupture, too, so....)

But I suppose the healthier thing would be to talk to you about emailing instead....Yet if you just say "Of course it's still fine to email; my policy hasn't changed," that doesn't so much give me comfort.

Your reply was fairly clinical, but I can't talk about that, because you answered the question I posed. It would maybe be different if I'd said something like, "I'm just looking for support right now." But I didn't.

Of course, I need to talk about the school letter tomorrow...I really think that was part of what was behind my stress, but I couldn't send you an email and the letter and expect you to read all that and respond (and not charge me, but even if charging me, it was a potentially big ask for a Sunday morning). At least now I know who wrote it!

Love,
LT