Hello everyone. I am 41, married to a meth addict -- who is currently in rehab. He's 26. Yes, big age differance! We have a 15 month old daughter and I have a 10 year old daughter from my 1st marriage. I love him dearly -- but he's got a bad addiction. We're trying to stay married. I'm a Christian.

We met in 2005 -- at a bar no less. Anyway, I soon found out he had not stopped doing meth like he told me. I'd never done the stuff -- but evidently his younger crowd love it. So, the chaos ensued. I was so crazy about him and he would talk his way back into my life after the fights we would have when he was high on meth. But, his use got worse. And, his violence got worse. I found out I was pg in July 2006. He was on a major binge and I kicked him out. He went to rehab August 2006. He got out in October - we married November. It was great. For about 5 months. Then he started drinking, smoking pot and eventually doing meth. I filed for divorce September 2007. He talked me into dismissing it January 2008. His use continued.

I got 4 TPO's on him from September 2007 until March 2008. The last one was in February 2008 and I went to court on it. He had talked me out of the other 3 -- only to use again and get crazy again. So, this last one is for a year. March 2008-March 2009. I basically told him I was divorcing him.

Well, he went to rehab on May 9th. Ofcourse he is back to his wonderful self that I fell madly in love with. But, I have told him -- I'm not dropping the TPO and he needs to do more than 6 weeks (that's what this in patient program is for). He needs to do 6 months somewhere after this program.

So, that's where I'm at with him right now. He sucks me back in EVERY time. And, this time I want to be sure he's better before dropping the TPO, having him move back in, etc. My ex-husband doesn't want our 10 year old around him (understandly so). Which Brett cannot comprehend. So, I honestly do not know what is going to happen.

Just looking for others to talk to and get some support.

Susan