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Jun 13, 2022, 01:07 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Pretty much beating the hell out of myself for trusting someone I had questions about. My reference point for "okay" and "no, not okay" never did develop properly, so I never know whether my gut feeling is reliable, or not. To this very moment I don't know. I feel completely lost. I plan on calling tomorrow and making an appointment with a therapist, just to process this mess, but I want to see a therapist tomorrow. I don't want to wait 3 or 4 days, and if it's a week, I don't even know.
There actually is a drop-in center in this county where people can talk to a therapist, but it's in a town 20 miles from here. Not only do I not have gas or money for $6.80/gallon gas, but the road I'd have to travel on is up high, narrow, and runs all along the levee of a wide river. Too many people drive like maniacs on that road and there are accidents there a lot. One car ended up in the river last week and I was like, OMG. That's it.
I'm rambling. So tired, going to bed. Love all around 
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