I have been dating my boyfriend for 15 months now. We have a great relationship. But, there's a few things about our relationship that bother me, that I can't get past.

The first thing being trust. I want so hard to trust him. When we met, he was divorced for one month. His wife was horrible to him, which, in turn, made him become a completely different person. He was extremely flirty, and always trying to 'hook up'. Within the first month of us officially 'dating', I realized he wasn't someone I wanted to be with. I'm not a flirty person, at all. I don't want someone who will casually make up conversation with someone they don't know. He does this a lot. We were out with all of my friends, and he would dance on them, acting like he was going to grab their boobs, he did grab their butts, and he got excessively drunk. I didn't like what I saw at all. We had a horrible weekend together, and I went to his place to call it quits. He said that's not the person he is and he didn't want to be that person anymore. He started crying. That is still the only time I've seen him cry.

Then, I was hanging out with his parents and their friends one weekend, when I noticed this one girl who is a friend of a daughter of his parent's friends was giving me looks and was not nice to me at all. Just randomly, I asked him if he has ever been 'involved' with her before. He said yes, that they 'made out a few times', while he was going thru his divorce, and she was also in a relationship with the guy whom she's getting ready to marry. I don't believe in that stuff. I asked him three months before this to let me know if i'm going to be around anyone he might have had a fling with before, so I'm not put in an awkward situation. I asked him why he didn't tell me, and he said because he thought I would get angry. That made me angry because he just put me in the situation I didn't want to be in, after I asked him not to. Now, I know he will keep things from me because he thinks I'm going to get mad. Therefore, I don't trust him. How can you trust someone who doesn't want to tell you something?

Another issue I have is that I want kids of my own, but he is fixed and already has two kids with his ex. I'm 34. I'm at that point in my life where if it's going to happen, it needs to. But, he's made it clear he doesn't want anymore. He likes to drive that point home to me whenever I try to bring it up. He did so much last weekend that I bahled my head off for a half an hour, and I couldn't stop. It hurts really bad.

Another issue I have is that he's an alcohol salesman. I'm an engineer with a typical schedule. He wins trips, and gets trashed on these trips with co-workers. The last trip he took, he got so drunk one night that I couldn't even talk to him on the phone. Then, teh other nights he was making sure his female co-workers got back to their rooms okay. These girls had skirts on, flirting with him. Seriously. Sometimes I feel so belittled by his job.

But, I don't want to lose him, because he is a good guy. These are the issues I have with him. He's very caring. He can be emotional. But, I don't want to lose him. He makes me laugh like noone has before.

I'm at this pivotal point that I need to trust him and move on, or get out. I'm so up in the air. I don' tknow what to do.

We've been to counseling, and I've been told to focus on the positive and not the negative. I've tried. Then, something comes up like him going to vegas with his best friend... it makes me want to leave.

Any advice?