i can imagine how alone you must feel now... you can turn here... we care.. you are not trash or garbage... no matter whats been done or whats happened there is bright hope for new tomorrows... i feel your despair, ive been there... i gave up my son... it was very very hard..... i know it was best at the time and i cant turn back time, all i can do now is suffer with that knowledge and wish the best for him... do i think of myself as vile and inhuman? i have before.... but that wouldnt be the best thing i could do for my son.. so, im trying to shape up... those are my reasons... not telling you what you should do...

just saying that we all are unique and we all have a special gift to bring ths world... you, myself, many others, we've had to search for it, but trust me, it is in you.... its ok to vent ((purple))))))