L, I want to hear your voice. Forgive me, but I've been listening to your psych today profile video again this week. I don't watch it, because you look so stern, not much at all like the you I know, so I just listen to it. Oh and hey have you seen Machiel's new dream guidance book? I got it in the mail today and can't wait to start reading it. I plan to bring it with me on Friday to read while h is having his procedure. I am missing you this week more than I have in awhile. It's so weird that you're still so, so, so... present in my head, I guess is how to describe it. I talk to you every night as I'm falling asleep. I had hoped that by 6 months out that wouldn't have been the case anymore but it is. Sigh. I admit it. I am also (and again) missing the us we used to be.