I am back after having a few days of panic mode. I guess I was just feeling overwhelmed. I just had the feeling my T didn't want me to do the interview. That is different than her actually not wanting me to do the interview. My T didn't even know about the interview. I have trouble communicating things a lot of the time. Anyway, I did the interview. Then I got a second interview but I turned the second interview down because I was feeling anxious about it and I didn't want to disrupt my mental health routine, given that I guess I think that a job could disrupt my mood and stress levels to a place I don't want to be again. I am stressed, but I feel like talking with others helps a lot. I am sorry to hear of the sufferings of various members on here, just remember, if there's anything you need to vent or get out, there are people on here who understand or who will at least try to understand, myself included.