I'm going back on meds tonight 😴. I'll probably be sleeping the first day or two. But I'll be around as much as I can. T's worried, h is worried and I'm just not feeling safe. So back on meds for me. I don't want meds for life. I feel I should be able to learn to control it and get off meds and just deal with it in therapy but truth be told I think I scared t today. And that's not fair of me to do.