I don't post often on the board, but this is exactly what I am struggling with now. My T just provides more "tool" suggestions (like phone alarms, pill packaging, etc) He's not really helping me address the problem of my not wanting to be on meds for many reasons - the most important of which is that I don't like my dumbed down personality on meds. My Pdoc just reiterates endlessly the importance of the meds. Her favorite line is I risk death by not staying on my meds. I would like to believe its a willpower thing or a trick learned in childhood too.