I think I understand this. I think you are saying the thing holding you in your marriage be it a specific emotion, function, purpose or personal belief, is still there for you. And whatever it is that will change what's holding you there hasn't been broken.

Only you know will know if the root of things will loosen. From my own experience, it's hard sometimes to know what's holding things together. I have no regrets about my choices for myself and you deserve to have no regrets about the choices you make for you.

My only small regret is how long I struggled to make my choices. I think that's common though because in the moment when I made those choices, I wasn't able to make the choice before I did. I too had to wait for the root to be loose enough for me to uproot things.

All the best to you and your family.