I can't even find a T willing to work with me unmedicated. So to continue therapy I have to take meds. I continue therapy because I want an advocate if I'm ever to be hospitalized because my husband gets nervous about me. So I'm kinda stuck. I don't want them they kill my personality. I'm muted, tired and don't have the will to fight for things I believe in on meds. My husband got offended when I said I wish they could do a fmri or something concrete. He said the meds would be the same because they work for me. He doesn't seem to understand.