You said the ACT program director would call me today or Tuesday. Well, it's about time to say it's not going to be today. Just really upset because Tuesday morning I have an appointment with my NP and I don't want to get the call during the appointment.

That said, I'm still doing really really poorly. I'm self-medicating again which on one hand is good because I'm functioning and not self-harming and it's keeping those sui thoughts away, but I know at some point there's going to be consequences again.