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Originally Posted by Werewoman
I can't accept that I'm stuck being bipolar. Right now the depression isn't too bad but the mania is unbearable. Sometimes it's the depression and sometimes it's both but it's always there - unbearable. Meds don't seem to work for me anymore and I'm ready to just give up on the whole thing.
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For me, it's less being bipolar than being defined by it. Having my hopes, dreams and potential minimized and disregarded because of it. Having every negative stereotype about mental illness hung around my neck like an albatross. Fighting so hard to get where I am, only to find I have so far to go. Knowing if I indulge the "shopping spree" or the "drink into oblivion" part of my brain, this all gets reinforced more.
I have no problem with noble fights and stubborn resistance. I just wish I didn't have to fight. so. much.
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
Last edited by Aurelius710; Jun 17, 2022 at 07:41 PM.
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