I said goodbye to my dog this afternoon. The vet came to my place, which was amazing. He went very peacefully and didn't seem to be in any pain. Just fell asleep. I am glad his suffering is over. The last few days were very difficult for him.

I'm also feeling very guilty about feeling relieved. Not that his suffering is over, that I'm happy about, but about my suffering being lessened. I will cry and cry and cry for that boy and mourn him until the end of my time, but seeing him decline and suffer was taking it's toll on me. And I feel selfish for feeling some relief about that.

I appreciate all the notes and hugs on my last post about this. That support really helped. I don't know if any of you were wondering about the followup, but here it is.

My heart is broken.