TRIGGER WARNING


I gained about 60 lbs because of Seroquel. I've gained about 80 lbs in all because of my medications. Honestly, I think the doctors care too much about my weight gain. (Not even myself). They asked me to participate in a "psychiatric drug weight gain study for a weight loss drug to help lose weight" and I didn't really have a desire to do it. I think I've come to grips with my weight more like being body image positive. I know, I know. There will not be anyone who sees it like me. I love my body now since I've gained about 100 lbs. I am actually a happy person. There are less moments, for real, in which I'm terrifyingly upset and less moments when I'm angry. Wouldn't expect that from a (at starting age of medicine) 21 and now 30 y.o. woman. In fact in these past few months I've been so happy it seemed impossible. My doctors wish me to lose weight for I am a little obese, but I kind of don't want to since I'm scared I'll be that upset again to aim to cut my face since I lied about having scars on my face (and in my thinking I had to cut my face to amount it to being truthful since I really wanted these people to be my friends in real life). I am happy that I am a fat and happy cherub and I am glad I got psychiatric help because I believe it saved my life.