just accepting them for now? That's my problem I feel they steal my personality away, mutes me. I don't want to be muted for others happiness anymore. Yes I'm less impulsive on my med cocktail, less argumentative, and eat more. Maybe I'm manic or paranoid or both. I'm definatly agitated, argumentative, not sleeping (because I'm not taking the Thorazine) and spent money we don't have but these are my real feelings. So how do I know what's BP/Sza and what's a real concern?