I just was reading the title of this post and I realized that it has 2 meanings. One, I can't accept that I need meds all my life. (I know that's what you intended). But it also could mean I can't accept that I need meds to live, as in stay alive. And those are very different things.

For me I now that I need meds to stay alive. I'm blessed that it's been a very long time since I had a struggle with needing them. So it's hard for me to know what to say to help although I feel so bad for your struggles. But I just wanted to share my revelation because I thought it was interesting.