I don't really know what you mean by gender roles. I do tend to eat like a teenage boy most of the time though. I am on my own most of the time for meals and I don't cook so eating frozen burritos and cereal is just easy. I don't really like have high expectations when it comes to food either. Frozen pizza is just as good as restaruant pizza to me and Dennys sirloin steak is just as good to me as an expensive steakhouse. I got out of the habit of going out to eat once covid hit. I guess I just view food as like a way to survive most days and so eating doesn't bring me any joy, if anything I've been scared to eat because of my stomach problems. And yeah I do also want to look a certain way so I am very particular about food and keeping things in check. Things lately have been kind of unintenional/intenional at the same time which people don't seem to understand especially my therapist. I think my pdoc gets it but he is in another state and I do telehealth with him.