I'm not coping well today. I had a bit of a meltdown last night about my dog. He helped a lot to keep me going and helped me deal with the painfulness of life. Now that he's gone, it's just overwhelming how hard life is and how hard it is to keep fighting. Sorry to continue to be a downer about my dog and my life. I know how much I suck, so I'm sorry to cause you any problems. Sorry.