Angel,

As someone who has been "therapized" since my 20's and I am now 47 I am going to say to you "There is no quick fix". Therapy helps (at least for me) a little bit at a time and not everything gets "fixed" or even "covered". I am a member of AA and one of the things that is said in there is "more will be revealed" and that is meant over a period of time. In keeping with that thought "One day at a time" means (again for me)"one thing at a time". With respect to all of the crisis' that are going on TRY to prioritize them and ask for help!!! My own lack of self esteem led me to believe that I was not worthy of asking for help and that I was a pain the ***** if I did. I have come to find that in asking for help it gives others an opportunity to give back and/or just be of service because they can. The worst anyone can do is say no. And if they say YES don't feel obligated to them. (I've been really good at obligatory)

Back to therapy. Let your T help you to figure out the order in which you should work on yourself. And if she can't or won't do that then look for someone who will (if you can)If you knew what to do you wouldn't need to see her!
Be okay with being a work in progress....and if it's 2 steps forward and 5 steps back well at least you had the 2 steps! I hate to keep AAing you but it has helped save my butt many a day still and I am 15 years sober; anyway, it's "Progress NOT Perfection".

Most people are understanding and want to help. Try not to focus on the negative responses. Some people are afraid of what pain you're in and that is a defense mechanism (at least that is now my perception) Or there are just some not very nice people who just plain want to mess with others. Let DocJohn and the other Admins deal with them. Easier said than done I know.

All of this being said...I am not bipolar and am not familiar on a personal level with the symptoms so bear with me if I haven't addressed your needs accordingly.

I know there is a place called peace. I get to visit it from time to time when I am in touch with my spirit and not with my demons.

I wish you love, hope, and strength,
Pam