Me too to be honest. I mean I loved it. It was the only thing that truly worked for everything - mood, sleep, anxiety, psychosis etc and didn’t take away my personality or my ability to feel emotions or enjoy things or be creative - BUT it doubled my weight, gave me diabetes, gave me heart problems that went away after I stopped taking it and is suspected to have been the trigger for massive pulmonary embolisms that I had not long after starting to take it (I do have a genetic condition but they were triggered). I’ve been off it now for 8 months and have lost 40kgs (88lbs) but still a long way to go. It’s the devils drug but it’s so good!