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SlumberKitty · Jun 22, 2022, 10:32 AM

Hi everyone,

I saw my T last night, virtually of course. She managed to tell me she spent the weekend with her daughter and grandson and that is why she was too busy to reach out to me. (Excess information as I hadn't asked her to reach out to me. But I guess she wanted to.) And she also managed to tell me she was going to Las Vegas this weekend. All in a pretty serious session about my recent relapse.

It was kind of a complicated session, plus I don't remember most of it. I do remember that she said she was proud of me and that I was doing well.

Trigger for SH/OCD

Possible trigger:

She also explained that self harm is on a continuum like most things, and I am on the "you're doing yourself a lot of damage end." She also asked me what would happen next time if I were to relapse and find myself in the same position, would I seek help from the ER or the GP, considering how GP called the cops on me? I hemmed and hawed. I was like, I guess it would depend on how serious I thought it was. She's like, I am going to trust you to do the right thing. I was like, hmm, okay. Well hopefully I do. (But I didn't tell her that the right thing might be avoiding medical care so I don't get put IP when I am not even suicidal! So that tells me she is worried about it. Which makes me feel kind of bad. She also suggested that instead of asking my GP when I go back for my follow up next week if she is scared that I would hurt her, that I should ask her why she called the cops on me, when the wounds were already 36 hours old. I think I will try this. I will also probably tell GP I am less likely to reach out for help in the future should I need it because of that incident.

T also told me I would be a good candidate for hypnosis. She says I am very suggestible. Like someone says something and the OCD part of my brain latches onto it and doesn't let go. She also explained how my OCD is affecting my SH. So that was kind of helpful. It was good to talk to her. I was embarrassed because of the relapse and I am very anxious today so I took some anxiety medication. HUGS to anyone who wants one. Kit