I feel like two people at times. Two people who rarely get along. I guess what I am having is sexual identity issues. For a while I've been identifying as gay/bi but cloeseted from my family (who may know or not know, idk). I've never really accepted all this because I don't know if it is me or things that happened to me as a kid, so it makes it even difficult for me to be in my own skin. I've got this overwhelming urge to be normal or what society says is normal, and to carry out the normal plan of get married, have kids, rinse and repeat.

But recently one of my good friends, she just got a new b/f, and I think that when this happened, I finally realized what it felt like to really love someone. She was around/lived with me while I had my b/f so she knows about me....

This is a whole lot more complicated if you had my whole story, but that would be a book up here. Although its probably not as complicated as I perceive it to be.