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Originally Posted by RollercoasterLover
Sometimes the breaking point is a simple action about something we take for granted.
My personal breaking point was being told I wasn't allowed to change the TV channel before bed to check the weather for the next day. (A personal routine so I could plan what to wear to make mornings faster and easier with 2 kids) I went to another room to watch the report. The next morning I went to check the same channel for the local traffic report while my kids ate breakfast. (More of my personal routine because I drove my kids to school/childcare on my way to work). He had used parental controls and blocked the local news station that ran traffic and weather every 2 minutes in a loop. I had always excused his abusive behaviors, his cruel words and emotional manipulation as a result or symptom of something else, as if he couldn't help it. Blocking the channel was intentional and specific. It was deliberate and intended to be hurtful.
I hope you and your children are doing OK. One day at a time.
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Thanks rollercoasterlover. How petty of him to block the news.
He can’t help it is what I always think. But I am realizing that makes no sense. I think I miss a lot of things he does because I don’t think like him, and it goes over my head. I didn’t realize it’s intentional, but now I am waking up.
I am thinking it’s good he blocked me because it’s ongoing and I keep remembering about it and thinking how ridiculous this relationship has become. And it really angers me and I usually get over anger very quickly if I get angry at all. I don’t think my anger will go away about it because it is just so stupid I can’t stand it.