Arrggghhhh why can’t I just say what is in my head? What can’t I ask for what I need? Why have I made no improvement with this in a year? You just don’t get it. You don’t understand how intolerably painful the risk of rejection feels. You don’t get how painful this transference is. You don’t get that I can’t see how this all gets better. I’m so tired of getting nowhere. I’m tired of therapeutic relationships becoming just as painful as the reasons I am in therapy. I think I need to walk away. But my infant parts are too attached and won’t let go. How does this ever get any better?
Oh and thanks for saying the year we have been working together has been ‘challenging.’ Great to know how you feel about me.