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Originally Posted by ReptileInYourHead
I’m still thinking about this mountain in me.
I don’t think it’s fear. I think it may be all of my potential, all the wonderful things I could achieve, the person I want and could be.
The force I use to push against my potential is addiction, it nullifies all possibilities of it manifesting, and numbs all that latent fear that comes with trying to achieve a “better self”.
But I still cannot pin down the source of the motive behind the resistance.
How did it get to this?
I won’t write any more on this in your thread, I was just wondering if you also have a mountain..
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Hi ReptileInYourHead
First, I don't mind at all if you write about your mountain on this thread. I like hearing your perspectives and comments.
Second, I think I must have a mountain. I don't know what it is that is blocking me from recovering fully from self harm but something is because I have been doing it too dang long. And I have tried and tried and tried to give it up.
I don't know if it is abandonment, loneliness, being an "outsider" or maybe just plain old anxiety. But there's something.
Hugs to you my friend.
Kit