I had signs of depersonalization two nights ago, I went to concentrate for 1-2 hours (Searching about Russian nootropics) - After that, I started to get derealization...

I told my mom and she understood, asked me if I took anything (Microdose, alcohol?) I said no.. I did drink a shot of rum earlier that afternoon but nothing else.. I was wondering if it was the 1g of vitamin C (I took it because of a type of COVID brain fog/tiredness that I've never experienced before..). I thought of my head being non-existent and just my spine existing, receiving radio signals - That's what it felt like.

I told her to just pretend that I'm fine.. I started staring at my things.. I would say "You're fine".. and I'd have to correct myself and say "Stop talking in 3rd person.. I'M fine!!".. and the thoughts drag on forever, "What is "I", what is "you""... I noticed that I wouldn't just be standing up, freaking out about what I'm doing, staring at things if I was fine..

Eventually it faded away once I started to lie down/rest... + zopiclone, I fell asleep and went to work. It was a good day at work - I did some extra things and stayed a little longer.. When I was going to leave, my boss gave me a hug and she said "Best worker ever!" - They're grateful to have me working there I guess... + The OCD symptoms/perfectionism makes me a good worker..

I'm writing things down for when I see my doctor on Monday and my psychiatrist in July.. I only took one 15mg Dexedrine - It's hard not to take two but that just depletes my dopamine (And is probably what would cause more dissociation in the future if I continued). I'll ask my doctor about taking two 10mg..

I want to ask my doctor as well about vitamin D deficiency (I always take 1000 IU every morning - But some people take like 10-20k IU) - And that it can help with DP/DR.